| i could write a lot but i don't feel like it.
summmmer has started!
florida in 6 days! so excited.
should be good.
i turn 20 in a little over a month! sweeeet! <3 | comments: Leave a comment   |
| | Subject: | away. | | Time: | 07:59 pm |
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| jay left on a cruise for 10 days last wed.
i've been going crazy.
i seriously didn't think i would miss him this much.
everyone said it's probably because for the past month i've seen him like everyday.
which is true, plus it's our first time away from each other for awhile.
and i can't even talk to him so that's killing me.
it sucks, everywhere i go i see something that reminds me of him.
i hate it.
in the city i never hear his ringtone unless i'm with him and i heard it.
then i saw corona sitting in the window next to heineken and his corona is his favorite beer and heinken is his friend tonys favorite and they are on the cruise together.
then i walked past a place that said, "jays nails"
and then i walked on the street his dad works at and i've never seen that place and i happen to turn down that street.
hahaha i'm such a dork, but i miss him terribly.
well beth and i went into the city on saturday.
we got some really cute stuff.
stalked some really CUUUTEEEEEEEE gay couple, oh man so adorable.
they were in their own world and holding hands.
we got hit on, alot.
I GOT WINKED AT BY A MIDGET.
waited forever.
WALKED EVERYWHERE.
hung out with assholes.
got ditched, missed the bus.
called everyone on our phone to come get us in hoboken at 5 in the morning. charlie came and got us and we didn't get home till 7.
it seriously was a great night though.
so things are going well!! =] | | comments: Leave a comment |
| well a lot has happened.
jays mom past away.
jay is doing pretty good about it. he has his moments. only really when he gets drunk, it gets bad but for losing his mom that he was very close to he's doing well.
i got to meet his whole family that weekend which was awesome i just wish it wasn't because of his mom dying. his family is so funny and i had a greast time watching everyone get drunk.
jay and i are doing awesome. we've had one fight so far. it wasn't even relaly a fight. it's just i get so upset about this one girl diane. like i trust jay and ive talked to her and i trust her its just they take these cigarette breaks for like hours at a time and they take a walk. it just gets me nervous cause even though she has a bf who is jays best friend, jay told me that shes had a thing for him and out of all the friends she thinks jay is the hottest and best all around. and shes sooo prtty and awesome that i just get worried. but i'm learing to deal with it. i just have to remember that she might get cigarette breaks with him but i get him everyday and i get to cuddle with him, take care of him and be there for him so whatever.
now jay has his wisdom teeth growing in and his whole mouth got infected. hes in such bad pain and you can tell cause his cheeks and jaw are swollen and he can barely talk. he cant eat and he can barely sleep. i feel so bad esp. last night when we had dinner with his family and we were all eating in front of him and he was just complaining how he couldnt eat at all. awww lol
well everything is fine. school sucks again. i just dont like it and its because i cant get past the basic classes. i just want to go learn stuff about my major and not math and english. grrrrr.
i dont really h ave a job job. i just babysit mondays, tuesdays and thursdays. which is nice cause its $200 a week. but all my money goes to jay cause he hasnt been working so ive been supporting him. i prob shouldnt but i want to. i kn ow hell repay m e back. and i dont even want him to repay with cash i just said that when we go out to eat he pays and when we go to florida, he takes care of me for the most part and hes agreed so its all good.
so everything is going pretty well.
oh except i fight with my mom all thetime and that drives me craxy but whatever, shes fucking ridiculous.
thats it for now. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| everyone seems to be going through tough times.
especially jay.
his mom is pretty much dead, they are just waiting for their dad to have them stop.
they are money problems as well because their mom did EVERYTHING, from the bills to laundry, to just pretty much EVERYTHING. they are all stressed and it's just crazy. there's a lot of crying and screaming and i feel so bad.
part of me knows what's going on cause i saw my mom go through that with her family when my grandpa died except there weren't that many money problems.
it sucks all around and i feel so bad and i don't know waht to say to him so i just hold him and let him cry. i want to cry too cause his mom was such a nice person and i only met her three times.
lately my mom has been on my back for money and right now i've been doing pretty good cause the babysitting job i have twice a week puts $170 in my pocket plus an extra $60 from mondays babysitting.
the only sucky thing is that my mom doesn't know that not only am i trying to support myself by buying myself food, gas and giving her money but i'm also doing that for jay. jay is working more time then me and more pay but not getting paid. it's driving him crazy and he feels bad that he asks me for money. i don't mind at all. i'm glad to give it to him sometimes i even offer. the worse thing i've done is that i gave him money for his painkillers. that's $45 right there. i know i know i know it's bad and it could kill him and it's not the right way to make him happy but when he is on them he is happy. he doesn't do them as much anymore and i know i could just make it worse by allowing him to do it but i just hate seeing him upset.
everything just sucks for him but i'm glad to be there with him and help him get through it. we end up going out on our own and having so much fun. we go for random drives and blast music and just forget our problems. i love him very much and have never felt this way towards anyone and i'm so happy even though we're going through a rough time. but maybe that means adfter this we can get through anything. like now i'm starting to tell him how i really feel about things.
i always keep things inside but i trust him even more now and feel even more comfortable around him and he is so understanding to my feelings. he doesn't make me feel nervous and he actually listens to me. or pretends too hahaha. well i don't know. things are good even though we're in a sucky situation and i can't wait till it's over but things are good. =] | | comments: Leave a comment |
| well babysitting is great. i love the kids i babysit for and they love me too, even the parents love me so it's pretty awesome. they are so much work but at the end of the day i don't really want to leave. they are so cute and crazy.
jays mom is now on life support and i think it's pretty much just a matter of time till the doctors say they can't do anything else and they decide to pull the plug. it's sooo sad and jay is taking it pretty well. i'm glad i can be there for him. he never wants to be away from me and he says i make him happy and feel better. he really is the best boyfriend i've ever had and i'm so happy to be with him. we're not going to florida but our flights are good for a year so we can still go so it's not bad. it would have been nice to go this week and get away but oh well what are you going to do about it? i'm still happy.
school sucks a lot. i only go two days a week that i feel like i don't even go. i don't like it. it's just stupid math and english. it's boring and just ughhhh and fuck term papers.
well besides jays mom things are going pretty good i would say. i'm not complaining. i'm happy. hopefull things will get even better with jay. yay! <3 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| jays mom isn't doing good.
it scares me.
she went into the hospital last week for just a little thing and now she's been in there for over a week.
the other night she went into intensive care again and tonight jay told me he's in the er and it's not looking good.
he hasn't texted me back and i'm soo nervous.
i hope she's ok.
blah. florida in 8 days. something to look forward too. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| i told jay the other night that sometimes i wonder why he picked me. i think sometimes he deserves better. i see the girls he's friends with or the girls he used to talk to and they are NOTHING like me. i guess that's why we've beeen together the longest because i'm not like the other girls. he got mad at me for thinking that and told me to never think like that because he did choose me and he's happy. then he asked if i wanted to hear why he picked me and i said yes and he told me he picked me cause i'm cute and not only am i cute but i'm the biggest sweetheart he's ever met. coming from jay i think that was a very good answer.
him and i are doing well. we see each other like everyday and if we don't see eachother we talk on the phone or text message. he met my dad and my dad likes him and that's awesomeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!
soooo life is really good rtight now. besides me not having a job there are so many good things going on that i'm just so happy.
so yea! jay and i are going to florida in about 2 weeks and i'm so excited yet so nervous. i've never gone alone anywhere with just a boy. i mean i've gone places without my parents but not with a boy and i've gone somewhere it was like being with my mom. now i'm going to see jays friend. it's going to be fun though and jay and i promised to each other that no matter what happens we will have fun. i'm really excited.
i'm soo happy and i'm glad to be happy!
hope everyone else is doing well! <3 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i havent updated in so long.
soooooooooooooooooo much has been going on.
everything has been great except for being kinda jobless at the moment.
but i start school next monday.
jay and i are great.
i have the best friends and family ever.
so yea, i'm pretty happy. =]
i want feb. 13th to come now!!!!!!!!!! FLORIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3333 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| sooo lets seeee.
it all started thursday. beth and i met dana at pccc. beth and i registered and it took forever for me but i'm going back to school!!!!!! jan. 19th for education. i'm kinda nervous but kinda looking forward to going back. it's going to be long and hard but i need to get it done. i think i'm ready now.=]
after being at pccc forever, beth, dana and iwent to gsp. we were supposed to be christmas shopping but that didn't happen. after the mall i went to dance and after dance, josh, dana, beth, jay nad i were supposed to get together. but jay ended up not coming and everyone else did. everyone came over and beth and i left dana and josh and we ran to the supermarket to get tons of food for the boys cause we were going to make them lunch. we were told six hungry, cold boys were coming. y ea only 2 came. then after that we ran to the diner and got tons of food for us to eat. hahah josh left and dana, beth and i tried to fit in my moms bed and sleep. that did NOT work but it was def. funny trying. goooood times. ahahaha
friday morning we woke up and we made mac&cheese, pizza bagels and rice krispy treats all for just jay and kyle. yea awesome. after that we went to mandees and then i drove beth home and came back home and jay came over.
jay didnt feel like going home and he was cold so he just came over to my house since he works down the road. him and i basically just layed in the living room and watched tv and fell asleep on and off. and we ordered italian food and it was sooo cute. it was like a romantic dinnner in my little dining room. it was fun <333 then around 9ish melanie came over. then around 11ish josh came over and he was wasted. it was hilarious. he was gone. hahaha then around midnight beth and dana came over and seriously the whole time they werent at my house we tried to stay up and got excited that they would be here soon. as soon as they came josh, jay and i were like passed out. they were kinda mad lol but then kyle came over at 2 in the morning and he was drunk and that was crazy.
then on saturday we all woke up cause mel had work and jay was supposed to leave. beth and i had work at 11 but we decided to go in at 12. haha so we go in at 12 and beth got bitched at and i got sent home. i was pretty pissed only because i knew dan was just being an asshole but kinda happy cause i got to go home and sleep.
then i woke up and met up with erik to go to his moms house for some christmas party she was having. that was kinda boring but fun cause erik and i just hung out and talked. him and i decided that we are going to get married when all else fails. kinda hope all else fails. hahahaha
then sunday i worked till six and that was boring and beth and i were supposed to do something but there wsa nothing to do so i ended up just going to jays and watching a movie. then i left and that was that.
this week i'm seriously going to find out what is going on between us. we act like were bf and gf, everyone thinks we are but we ha vent actually asked each other and gave each other the title. idontknow whats going to happen. ughhh i guess well see.
this week/weekend should be another fun one!! =]
oh and i'm starting to give up on you. i put in my effort to show that i care and i'm def. not getting any in return and it does kinda hurt. hope youre happy. <3 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| hmmm so thursday dana and i hung out and we went to the mall. i went in and saw sara!! who i love and miss a lot!! <33 then after the mall jay and josh came over. we all hung and watched tv then went to the diner and then came back over and watched some more tv. dana left and then jay and josh left half an hour later. it was sooo much fun.
then friday dana and i met up and josh picked dana, beth and i up. we went to valley view and we were going to go to montclair but we all just ended up staying at valleyview. beth and i drank in joshs car and it was funny. then jay came in and beth left and jay opened up to me about his mother and i thought he was going to cry. but i was really glad that he talked to me about it.
then everyone was thingking of things to do and i wanted to stay with jay so i left dana, josh and beth and went with jay but then dana, beth, and josh came and kidnapped me lol cause i shouldnt have gone to where jay was going to.
so beth, dana, josh and iwent to the diner. that was oh man so funny. dana and josh didnt drink, beth was semi drunk and i was gone. hahaha oh man it was great. then i went to danas and sleptover.
saturday i did nothing alllllll day and around 10 dana called and said i could meet her at chillis to eat with her sister, her sister fiance and teresa. that was nice and dennis paid for all of and i thought that was crazy. then dana and i left to go meet josh and gyllis at valleyview. we then went to some other bar in west milford. that was kinda lame. jay was really drunk and everyone was acting so retarded. i got really bummed out that night.
sunday i worked a double and that was actually really fun. it was long and work but it was dead and i made it funny with beth and maia and then dana. hahaha we were silly. too many red bulls.
then monday jay called me and asked if i wanted to get together and he said he forgot he told the boys hed go to the bar to watch football so he said i could go. so i met them there and watched monday night football with the boys. then jay said i go back to his house cause he wanted to show me his christmas tree that is seriously like 25 feet high. it was pretty and we just cuddled on the couch and watched tv.
then this afternoon after his class he came over cause i told him i would make him rice krispy treats and he liked them and we watched tv again for a bit. then he left and my dad and sister came home. we went to the bronx to see my uncle. then went to manhattan and went to the dance school i wanted to check out. i registered and when i go next time i get a picture id, pay for my class and take it. i'm really nervous and scared yet excited to try it. should be interesting.
then we got someee candy and went to papaya king and came home.
i'm exicted for this weekend cause jay asked me if he could take me out to dinner and then into the city to see the tree cause he knows i wanted to do that. so i hope hope hope hope hope he follows through with that and we go.
then saturday i'm going to my friend eriks family party and that should be interesting! =]
i'm reallly happy right now and i hope i stay like this. <333 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| my last entry was when i met jay. ha that's kinda funny.
2 weeks ago, i was at pccc with dana and i saw this boy in the corner and i thought he was cute. so dana and i were getting ready to leave and i saw he was leaving too so i went to dana, "heyy that kid iss..." and before i could finish she screams jayyy and they started talking. yea they knew each other. haha it was funny. so then he left i told dana he was cute and she's like noo way i wanted to hook you two up cause he's joshies best friend. haha so dana called him and we found him in the hallway and asked him to han g out later and he said yeaaa.
so then i went to dance class and then met up with everyone at work to watch happy feet. but dana and i left early to head over to jays. we watched tv and played beer pong and jay and i disappeared and talked and got to know each other and i fell asleep there.
then the next night, friday beth, dana and i all had work. after work we all got ready and i picked up dana and then picked up beth and we went to their friend joes house. i met all of their "guy" friends and they are all ridiculous and i love them all. haha so i wasn't supposed to drink but i had one drink and drove to valleyview. then had more there so dana had to drive my car back to joes house. we all had sooo much fun. everything was awesome. then after i drove dana and beth home and jay came with me.
he sleptover and then i called out of work on saturday and him and i slept all day. my mom made us breakfast and we watched tv all night. then we went to the diner, came back to my house and passed out. lol then i dropped him off sunday morning before work.
then on monday dana and i went tp his friends rodens house. we all just hung out and talked them into going to get food so we did that and went back to rodens house. that was fun.
then tuesday i went out with my dad and then wed. i worked and thursday was thanksgiving. i had breakfast at richs with my mom, rich, and dB. then dB and i went to my uncles and my dad came, we ate a little there. then i had work till close. i was kinda busy but it wasnt that bad.
then friday dana and iworked and after work i met up with dana and we met up with jay, joshie and roden and we went to a stip club. y ea i was the only one underaged. joshie said i was going to have to sign a thing that says i was a stripper but i wouldn't have to dance. i said whatever. then we get there and the guy was like theres a problem and i thought he was going to say i wasnt allowed in but he said i had to dance. so he got this stripper and she took me under the bar and made me dance and walk around. i heard all the guys scream take it off and iwas shaking soo bad. like i dont think ive ever been so nervous before. then they made me go on stage and one stripper was in front of me and another was behind me and they were all over me and they were trying to take off my shirt and i fought with the one girl a bout it lol. then they said i was allowed off. it was funny. crazyyy. then dana and i watched the boys play pool and then we all got hungry and left. we went to the diner and that was fun. then after we dropped joshie and roden off to their car and jay, dana and i went to pick up somers and this kid brett. we then went to rodens house.
rodens house was fun at first but then when dana and i went to leave jay and i got in this big misunderstanding. he got jealous when i laid in his friends bed and took pictures with roden. he said it was wrong of me and that i s hould have known he wouldnt like it but everyone said ididnt do anythnig wrong. so whatever he got really upset and i thought i ruined things but he said i didnt. the night didnt end too happy.
then saturday we all worked and beth, dana and i went to rodens after work. roden was having a huge birthday/go away party. as soon as i got there jay left and ithoguht he was still mad at me and igot upset. the friggen party was outside. it was crazzzy. i was sooo cold and i had a sweatshirt on, a jacket, a scarf and joshie gave me his jacket and i stole tonys hat. i was sooo cold and it did not help me being sick. so jay came over by me a lot during the night but it was really awkward at times. then him and kyle left to go somewhere so beth and i had this plan to take a walk and when they drove past us they would see us and pick us up and our plan worked perfectly. haha so we drove around with them for like 5 minutes.
so i was suppsed to leave early to go to lindsays party but beth and jay wouldnt let me leave. so i stayed but then i was going to take brett home when the party had to end and he lives next door to linz. but then they were all going to the diner and asked me to go. so i ended up driving brett, jay and somers to the diner. we all hung out there for longer then expected and jay and i were back to normal at this point. so i was still taking brett home and jay and i talked for like 5 seconds about how we were back to normal and that everythnig was good. =]
then i left and jay called me 2 minutes later asking me to come back and get him and take him home cause kyle didnt want to and i said sure. so i took brett home and then i went and took jay home. jay and i sat outside in mt cae for like 20 minutes saying bye to each other. and i was happy he wasnt mad anymore and we talked about it more. then i left and when i got service in my phone i got a text saying come b ack from jay. so he called me and told me his brother wasnt home so i could sleepover and sleep in his brothers room. so i turned around and he gave me pjs and we went to his brothers room and watched tv and cuddled and then it was soooo wierd when he left to go to bed. his mom doesnt think its right to share a bed with a girl unless you know her for like a year. lol so he wrote a note on the door saying that i was sleeping lol. then at 9 i got up and left for work.
after work i came home, showered and went to see happy feet with kenny. i love that movieee and it was sooooo cute.
monday i didnt have to babysit so i slept till 330, it was amazing. i was lacking in sleep so it was amazing. then i woke up and showered and asked jay if he wanted to watch ice age 2 with me lol. he said suree so i went and picked him up and we came back to my house and watched it. then rich came over with the dog. after the movie jay and i pretty much passed out and he sleptover again. lol and then i took him home cause he had class at 12.
and now here i am. so dana keeps asking me what him and i are and i'm not sure. i think we're seeing each other but what the heck does that mean? so idon't know and i'm scared to ask him lol. everyone tells me he wants to take it slow and we are and we're just hanging out but idk lol
i guess we'll see but i'm happy. =] | | comments: Leave a comment |
| thanksgiving. joe jacobs. <3
lately things are ehhh. i don't know. i shouldn't be upset about anything. i need my best friend sara, maybe that's it. work is work, sometimes i feel that's all i do. i work and then i sit home bored. then maybe do something random, then that's it.
UMM the greatest thing ever. justin from toms river stopped talking to me cause he got a gf. his gf drank and he always said how hard it was to find a girl that didn't any of those. HELLLOOOO! I DIDN'T!!!!
then he said we lived too far but now he's thinking of moving to california cause he started talking to some girl that "stole his heart" on myspace. hahahahahah what the fuck.
john is getting on my nerves. "i promise well get together" yeaaaaaa thats been happening for almost over two weeks, so whatever i'm done.
daveeee is fucking psycho. i can't believe i had a crush on this kid for 4 fucking years and now that he actually wants me i can't stand him. he's just psycho though. he'll text me asking me to hang out and i'll tell him i really can't and he'll be like but i really want to see you tonight. so i text him back no. then he'll text me saying something and i didn't answer to he texted again, then called, then texted again. ughhhhhhhhh. he's crazy.
wow i sound so lame. anyway. i don't know. i'm going shopping today cause i actually have money and even though i should not spend it at the mall, i'm going to. it will make a little happier, i guess.
happy feet tonight. =] | | comments: Leave a comment |
| a lot has been going on.
good and bad.
halloween was really fun!
umm work sucks but beth and i make it fun!
ummm joe comes home in 2 and a hlaf weeks. <333
whatever. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| last night i was supposd to head over to johns, but he "fell asleep"
i was kinda pissed and i think i had every right to be.
so i just kept giving him one word answers and made it obvious i ws upset.
i think he got the hint and said he was going back to bed i just said ok bye.
i didnt give the smiley face or the heart like i always do.
so he just left and i was so upset.
then he came back.
like 20 minutes later.
he said hey cutie.
and i said hi again.
and then he apologized again and said that he really wwants to see me so hell figure something out.
cause now he might not make it wed. to the haunted jail either.
si i was still upset but then he said sorry again and told me all about his trip to ac.
so i was like whatever and we just started talking and laughing.
he told me jack the one eyed cat lol likes me more then him, no wait loves me. lol
then i told him i was cold and he said he would warm me up but the computer is in the way and then i said lets go to florida and hes like yea lets go cause he has friends down there. i was being really serious and i think he was too but well see about that one.
then he said he was going to go and he told me to have sweet dreams and was being all nice.
so i said byeee <3 and he said gooooooooooood night =]
so idk
then today he texted me saying gooood mornig!! what are you doing?!? and thats what the always does so it felt like things were back to normal and it made me so happy.
i was telling him i was lost and he helped me find my way and hes like see what would you do without me???
oh man i just dont know. grrrr so confusing. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| yea well i'm never drinking ever again or if i do i'm staying at what kenny, john and i call it the "dizzy stage"
i dont drink and lately i do it a lot.
i don't really like it and after thursday i really hate it.
i don't remember most of the night and that's the part that bothers me so much.
like ughhh i can't remember and they all do.
like i broke a shot glass, don't remember.
renee was there, don't remember.
i threw up all over johns floor and don't remember getting in or out of the bathroom.
i remember being in there but just not the actual getting there.
they said i was funny and not as bad as i keep making it sound.
they said it was normal and that they had worse.
well so now i guess it was a good learning experience and i def. learned a lesson.
so after thursday though all of a sudden john stops sending me texts like he always does and keept saying he would call but never did.
like grrr i don't know. he can't get mad after thursday. i meandrunk is not an excuse but i wasn't that bad and he should understand.
the real problem is that h e should stop his drinking. yea hes young and he should go have fun but he does it wayyyyyyyyyyyy too much and then he gives me the excuse hes tired.
last night he was tired and iwas like ok fine, you were in ac all weekend. then today too tired and he passed out and thaats why he never called.
but he still IMed me and said he cutie, sorry. then he said his cat loves me more. then he said he wants to see me this week so hes going to figure something out. then he apologized again.
whyyyyyyyyyyyyy?
grrr i fucking hate this.
good night. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i don't know.
i really don't.
i have no idea what's going on.
i think i'm depressed.
i hate this feeling. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| john is crazy with drinking.
he drank the saturday i met him.
not sunday,
monday after his hockey game.
tuesday cause he told me he threw up.
wed. it was his birthday.
thursday his friends were over and iwas there.
friday he went to hoboken for his birthday.
saturday he had a wedding.
hahaha now he's sick. i warned him.
anyway, he's still cute and fun.
im in love with his bed.
and i made friends with a few of his friends.
i guess that's a good thing.
then he said hes going to get me a fake id so i can go out with him more.
his cat humped me and i swear to god was enjoying every minute of it. like the thing was really going at it. it was digging his nails into my leg and biting the blanket. it was a ridiculous site to see.
so i guess things are good.
idont know. i feel something bad.
ahh whatever. i'm excited for halloween! <3
i hope he calls me tonight. <3 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| he texted me last night when he was out with his friends just to see what i was up to.
i told him i missed his bed and then got nervous thinking he wouldn't say anything back to that but then he said he missed me in his bed. it made me happy. =]
then today is his birthday and itexted him saying happy bday and he kept talking to me.
and now he's out with his friends and he texted me to see what i was doing.
that's a good thing right? it means he must be thinking about me?
hmmm he's cute. <33 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| this weekend has been really really fun.
friday i had off from work and i went pumpkin picking with sara and tommy. it was really fun and kinda scary cause we were the only three on what was called "the night ride". sara said it reminded her of the movie wolf creek and it did. but it was still fun and tommy got two huuge pumpkins and i got one huge one as well. then sara and i each got a small one. we went out to eat after and i saw the singer from maverick and thought that was funny.
after thati was supposed to go out with mel but things got screwed over and i just ended up going to see jackass. that was fun.
saturday i had work till six and then i came home and went to clifton commons and met this kid johnny. he bought his friend john and we went to chevy's. it was raelly fun and they were soo funny and we all go along great. they even paid for my dinner which i thought was sooo nice and didn't want them to but they wouldn't take my money. they were soo sweet. then i drove us to hoboken and i friggen parallel parked!!!! for the first time in 2 years!! ha i was seriously soooo proud of myself. then we went on the subway and took a taxi to some bar called bittys. it was underaged bar. it was really fun though. i've never been to a bar to just hang out before, the only time ive been to a bar is to see my dad working or a restaurant has a bar in it. i asked for a shirley temple lol but the boys made the bartender scratch that and they thought of something i would like and they ordered me a malibu baybreeze? and it was pretty good and ihad 5. but i felt totally finnne until i got up before we left and walked to the bathroom. i felt sooo dizzy. hahaha they thought it waas hilrious and then the subway ride was the worst. i felt soo sick and could barely stand. lol
then we got back to my car and john drove cause i def. wasnt able too. then we drove back to clifton commons and dropped john off to his car and ended up going back to the other johns house wehere we watched tv but the one john passed out and john and i fell asleep as well to. i had work the next day and that kinda sucked.
so i went to work till 6 and came home and i was going to go to the movies with sara, tommy, jen and roy but i thought the movie was at 830 but sara said it was 955. i didnt really want to stay out that late and i honestly didnt want to be the only one without a date. soo sorry sara. =[
i ended up going to johns and we watched the hills have eyes and passed out. i woke up at 830 and i had to be at work by 9. hahaha oooops. i got to work at 930 which i thought was pertty good considereing i had to get to pompton lakes from clifton, change and then drive to work. work sucked and beth and i got bitched at.
after work i came home and did nothing and then john told me his hockey game was at 10 so hung out with mel for awhile and her and i both went to his game. he plays really well even though he says he played like shit. but mel and i waited for him after and he introduced me to his dad and met mel. then his dad and him asked mel and i if we wanted to go to casey o'tooles with them but i'm too young but they know the owner so they got me in. mel left though and john and i hung out and ended up playing beer bong. everyone didnt like me cause i wasnt drinking but it was funny to watch them all get wasted and tell each other off. ah gotta love drunk people. so john and i realized that i'm going to be a good influence on him and hes not going to drink as much and hes going to be a bad influence on me where hes going to get me to drink every so often with him. haha i think it evens itself out. his dad was wasted and kept saying i was cute but not perfect because i like the devils and they are rangers fans. then he said i was probably a shitty driver cause i'm a woman and i better make sure john gets home ok cause i ended up taking him home and we ended up having another sleepover. ha so for the past three days i have not slept home and i liked it very much.
so i think i'm starting to like john a lot. i havent been all over him asking to hang out like everyday and the funny this is we have. and he hasnt tried to get into my pants like every guy tries to the first you meet them. he's like a real gentlemen and yea it's pretty awesome. he just makes me really happy right now. so well see how this one goes.
oh and i got my period and i honestly cant tell you how even though i'm in the worst pain right now i am SO relieved, you seriously have no idea. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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